i typically am confident
i was a girl scout
so i prepare
for situations unknown
i am the one who is most likely to
do a dry run
whether it is a speech
or
a route to a new place
although
i can handle off the cuff too
i just prefer not to
i am more comfortable with objective guidelines
than subjective ones
who isn't?
recently i have become obsessed
with this website called FoodGawker
if you have a food blog
you can submit photos
photos you think are gawkable
that would make someone want to reach out and eat their screen
photos that people who are not me take
i am hopeless
or should i say
i was hopeless
submitting photo after photo
and getting rejection after rejection
i was beginning to get a bit jolted
and forced to pull out my best groucho impersonation
"I DON'T WANT TO BELONG TO ANY CLUB THAT WILL ACCEPT PEOPLE LIKE ME AS A MEMBER"
but not really meaning it
because i kept trying
like a fool
the feedback was annoying
too much saturation--underexposed
and my favorite
food composition
what does that even mean?
like a jilted lover
i find myself scouring the site and saying things like
it looks too composed, who would eat that, they only pick their friends
can you imagine?
but now
i have changed my tune
because i had a photo accepted
and to be honest
i have no idea why
i'm not sure it is any better than the others before it
but i'm not going to bring that to "their" attention
because today
i feel like sally field
"you like me, you really like me"
thank you FoodGawker